That day was both fun and horribly devastating for me. The shooting day I mean. it was only 8 o' clock in the morning. EIGHT! not even nine. Geez and I got pickpocketed in the Stairway to Heaven on the way to the MRT (the stairway to heaven definitely does NOT deserve that name and is, therefore, sarcastic on many many levels). I got pickpocketed. And it was NOT a cheap little something-something. It was a very expensive something-something that isn't even in the philippines and I still do hope very much that even if it was a week ago already that that person would be struck by lightning and lose the ability to see and use his hands so that he/she will never get to use what they stole from me. See, it wasn't even MINE. So please, its yours. So long as you get struck by lightning and lose the ability to see and use your hands.

I vented.

And so that was the awful part of my day that, yes, almost ruined the shoot for me. Since I'm the cinematographer and the camera person too, i had to get my head into the shoot lest, you know, I ruin it for everyone. Sooo~ back to business. Well, I'm going to say that, honestly, the shoot went easier than i had imagined. And AND i think it was because 1) there were 5 of us in the group 2) our talents were REALLY into it and 3) the video was only 15 seconds. With such conditions, of course the shoot went smoothly. And that made me think a LOT about how my individual shoots would be when I have to be the director for everything and everyone. I just hope that my future talents would be cooperative and patient with me. And i hope that the equipment and other future requirements and conditions would cooperate as well because, geez, fotocom was only a taste of the real thing.

During the shoot too, i was worrying so much about the lighting. No, not the lighting that we had during the shoot but the lighting that i would eventually have to use when we make the other videos. In a way, my head wasn't on the video after our shooting, but more on what i would have to do for our other videos in the future. The pressure, and I have a big tendency to worry about things that shouldn't have to be worried about at that exact moment (i like making bigger problems for myself, it seems), was and IS getting to me.

I guess i hoped that i would have played a bigger role during our first shoot. I mean, of course i did my fair share (and the group really did give their best during the shoot) its just that, i personally think that i should have tried my hand at everything. i wasn't able to help out in the pre-production stage aside from the buying of the white stockings and gloves. I'm a nut for prod design so i sort of wished that i would have done something more with that.

what i got to appreciate about our first shoot the most was the campus and the fact that I enjoyed my time there because everyone i was with that day were my friends. UP-D is my mom's alma mater and although she never boasts about it, i think its still a pretty big deal. it made me wonder why i never really seriously consider studying there. When i think about it sometimes, the Interactive Design course of ADMU and Visual Communication course of UP seem to attract me a lot at times (but not as much as the MMA course in CSB where i was originally supposed to go with that full scholarship had it not been announced so late). I wonder why i'm in commarts...because there are times that, (okay i like films and tv and all but) i don't want to be behind the camera all the time. Like i said, i like trying my hand at everything so maybe i can try other things than be the one holding the camera. its sometimes not so fun to be the spectator all the time. you want to be in that spotlight sometimes too (or is it just me).

okay, that's off topic, i think...

so what really frustrated me about the shoot?

very little. you know why?

because i'm still to wrapped up about the getting pick-pocketed thing like NO JOKE. and its EATING my brain.

'till the next rant...

*bow*